I didn’t win fire blog of the year I learned today. I also found out my book Dangers, Toils and Snares: Confessions of a Firefighter failed to win the Colorado book of 2011 in the biography category. My ex-wife emailed me wanting money (It is the only time I ever hear from her is when she wants money), and I had a disagreement with my best friend and brother.
My big sister just returned from a trip to visit our parents and I wish I could have gone and seen those two dear people. My children are with and home for spring break and as always I’m broke and can’t afford to do the things with them they are asking to do.
The fledgling company I have started for mixed martial arts clothing is at risk as I find the difficulties of managing a company and dealing with my partners taxing. A very good friend relapsed with alcohol after many years sober and will suffer massive consequences as a result of a one day bender. Another friend had his best friend from childhood die as a result of his addiction this weekend.
I don’t have a partner in life anymore and to be honest I don’t know if I was offered that chance again I’d take it.
This all sounds rather pitiful I am sure. But I assure it isn’t. I chair a Sunday morning AA meeting every week and truly enjoy it because it isn’t a standard AA meeting, it is a spiritual meeting. The topic is about our relationship with a God of our understanding.
Over the past few weeks I focused the discussion on one of AA’s favorite prayers, the Serenity prayer.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change;
Courage to change the things I can and;
Wisdom to know the difference.
This Sunday the topic was the last notion; Wisdom to know the Difference. I wondered where wisdom came from, I hear all the time in AA meetings that the rooms of AA are filled with wisdom. I also know that we all enter AA at, to say the least a low spot in our lives.
I came in a very sick man, and in my opinion absent of wisdom, I don’t believe trying to kill yourself can be considered a wise decision. So these many years later have in fact achieved any wisdom?
If I accept that wisdom is applied knowledge then I can say I have been the benefactor of some hard got knowledge. The list above of petty complaints is just that, petty. We all have stuff, life persists and it is my duty to God to find the lessons in the tests.
So my blog didn’t win here is a list of the other nominees.
The Rest of the Nominated Blogs:
- Target Solutions Fire Blog
- Firefighter Close Calls
- The Fire Critic
- Belton Fire Department
- Chicago Area Fire
- Philly Fire News
- Rescue Humor
- Rescuing Myself
- Ambulance Stories in Mexico
- The Social Medic
- Not On My Shift
- Mitigation Journal
- Diary of a Benefit Scrounger
- Penn Care Blog
- Probie to Practitioner
- Hitting the Hot Spot
- CAL FIRE Inyo-Mono-San Bernardino Unit
- Firefighter/Medic San Diego County
- FlashPoint Fundraising
- The Working Class Conservative
- Hauling Humans / A Paramedic’s Perspective in a Fire Based EMS System
- The Code Coach
- Medic Madness
- California Fire News
- PGFD PIO Blog
- A Day In The Life Of An Ambulance Driver
- Sticky Side Down EMS Blog
- Life Under the Lights
- The Most Interesting Ambulance Crew in the World (Facebook Page)
- Coalition for Tactical Medicine
- Command Safety
- Westfield Fire Department
- Everyday EMS Tips
- Rescue Digest
- Paramedic Blog
- CFA Connect’s Blog
- Parapup Blog
- Life On Fire Report
- Brady Books Blog
- EMS Patient Perspective
- Situational Awareness Matters
- ASM-AETNA Blog
- The Howling Wolf
- Genola VFD
- Dan White on EMS1.com
- Pompierii Timișoara
- Montgomery County, MD Fire & Rescue News
- Street Watch: Notes of a Paramedic
- ER24 Blog
- Backwards and Stupid
- Fire Rescue France
I was a finalist, top ten and I restarted this blog on January 3 of 2012. Some of the above have been around for years and have been pouring their respective contributions in to the world of Heroes out of a shared common love for the men and women that do that job.
My hats off to you all and to the finalists and winners.
Fire Blogs Shortlist for Voting and Judges
- Working the job
- CT Fire EMS
- Statter 911
- First In
- Backstep Firefighter
- Average Jake FF
- I never wanted to be a firefighter
- Firehouse Zen
- Fire Law Blog
- An Ordinary Fireman
- Insomniac Medic
- Diagnosis: LOB
- Mobile Intensive Prayer Unit
- EMS Office Hours
- Trauma Queen
- Siren Voices
- Rogue Medic
- Paramedic Pulp Fiction
- EMS 12 lead
- EMT Spot
- Happy Medic
- Manchester egg 2010
- Rescuing Providence
- Firefighter/Paramedic Stories
They should all be thanked for their efforts to improve and educate the lives of our profession.
As for the rest of my petty list. I was proud to be a nominee and thanks to all who voted for me. I have my entire family with me. My mother and father will be married 65 years soon. My sister and confidant got to spend time with them, my brother and I will talk soon.
I pray for my friends that have had go through their low spots and I know God will be with them.
I took the kids for a two hour hike and we found some cool stuff (the carcass of a dead cow, so cool) and saw some cool stuff (my oldest daughter is a Bigfoot fanatic as am I and we found a Bigfoot track) and had a great time exploring on a beautiful Colorado afternoon.
I am truly blessed. I am surrounded by amazing family and friends. I am a sober father and sober man. So today the notion of a drink to make it “better” hasn’t crossed my mind. God is great whether you know it or not. Do I have nay wisdom? Hell I don’t know.